Recently a friend of mine started up his video blog to help him lose weight. I considered doing that, then recalled that I should probably prove to myself that I can keep writing in this one first. haha I laughed most that he didn’t say much about the weight loss, but rather discussed ‘life’…my favourite quote was regarding a textbook he had for school. After reading a portion of the text, he said ‘I have no idea what I just read’. I feel like that sometimes, too, when I read books with an apologetic bent. I sometimes need to read it over a few times before I catch the gist of what it is saying.
I try to read books that will broaden my vocabulary while sharing various insights about living as a Christian–I’ve recently been intentional about choosing books labeled ‘Christian Apologetics’. After all, as a Christian I am to be ‘ prepared to make a defense to anyone who asks you for a reason for the hope that is in you … with gentleness and respect’ right? in a book right now that is a little bit like that for me. The thing is…I don’t want to miss anything! Ravi Zacharias wrote Cries of the Heart which identifies certain questions we grapple with and (as Max Lucado wrote in the foreword) ‘helps us think without thinking for us’. And I love that I understand what he’s talking about. Sometimes I find I have to read a paragraph, or sentence, twenty times before finally unlocking the door the meaning was hidden behind. Sometimes a regular ol’ dictionary won’t quite do the trick with some of the terms I come across.
So grateful for Google!
I’m only on the second chapter of this book. I don’t read too well on a plane when it appears the pilot has bets on whether or not he can simulate a ride better than any rollercoaster at Wonderland
I did get a chance to read something that resonated a bit with me–
‘Much anguish is spent on the altar of self-acceptance when we have felt such rejection or when we compare ourselves against others. Many bring such insecurities into a relationship with God and do not know how to break their hold. Untold grief paralyzes many of us because we fail to see the differences with which God has made us. We allow ourselves to become irritated by someone else’s constant exuberance and wish to deny them that distinctive when, in fact, God has made us. God has shaped each one of us with a different personality(…) One of the most liberating moments in life is when we are able to accept ourselves as God has made us and are freed from the shackles of trying to be someone we are not and were never meant to be. We then soar to be the unique personality God has given to each of us.’
This isn’t anything I haven’t heard before, but it was timely for me to hear this. I’m about to head to a conference in Nashville with some really creative people full of great gifts and talents and I’m excited to meet them. But if I’m honest, I do need to watch the internal dialogue and make sure it is speaking words of life over me, instead of defeat, if I see someone doing something ‘far better’…and rather be encouraged and realize steps I need to take to be ME.
SO, I’m so glad I got that little reminder last night, and I’m sooooo very excited to catch up with some friends and make heaps of new ones this week while getting direction and learning new steps to my journey.
By the way, this conference is called Recreate here in Nashville…seriously looks great and completely different than any other conferences I’ve been to. A few of the guys I’ve been songwriting with for WorshipRises will be here this week—anticipating great times!
On a bit of a sad note–I realized when I arrived to my hotel last night that I left my one and only set of car keys at the Buffalo airport. Any and all calls to the airport have resulted in a list of 9 phone numbers I have been directed to call. No one can help me. argh… Lame on all accounts…haha Oh why am I so absent minded? Wait…it wouldn’t be me if something HADN’T happened! LOL
RIP Toyota keys–I will miss you when I fly home. Along with my favourite black mittens. and the $230US it’ll cost to get a new key with keyless entry.



